Banana girl said in our home group this morning that it has been to long since i have done a gratitude list. So here it goes.
1. I'm truly happy that i don't drink anymore the pressure to be me through a chemical is over. I can be me with out it.
2. I'm grateful for all of the people in my life
3. I'm not kicking my ass over the past anymore.
4. For my son
5. Moving on with my life, even though this is the hardest thing i have had to do in my life is to let go of my first love.
6. My self respect, the feeling of pride in me.
For all the things i have lost from drinking, me and now her. I do have a lot of regrets all the words i have said to her in a drunken rage. When i was truly mad at myself for drinking and took it out on her. That is one i don't want to forget how i can hurt the ones i love including me by swimming in beer.
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3 comments:
That was a great share. Open and honest. Thank you for reminding me how much I hurt those I loved while I was drinking. I need to remember those days.
the ripples that drifted out from my behaviour was the hardest to come to terms with for me. but thankfully times fades the awful memories and knowledges smoothes the edges, making it easier to live with myself... self-forgiveness is so hard to do.
RC, you have now started to forgive yourself. What a miracle! More will come! J
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